End it here , shall we ?

Girls , end it here . Oh just end it here , i don't wanna snap out and then i might not know whaad i will do next . So , our clique , just let it be C L I Q U E alrights ? Just go our own way . I don't wanna tire myself to tear again . I gave hints , youu and youu promised me whaad , its all empty promises , so just forget it , forget it people . I have my road , i just need all of youu , but now (...) , i am speecheless , so girls , i am off

Okaay , girls , hope youu will understand ,

Confused , And yeaaah , so whaad if i am headstrong ?

So , i was once so in love-d with Red Cross , many things happened , because of Red Cross , i am getting sick , getting tired , find it a joke , full of nonsense , crap , craaaaaaaaap . Things are getting in my way , i am so sick of it that i lost my passion in Red Cross . Ater the camp , i finally saw the glimmer of hope , i finally had a teeeenny weeeeenny sense of passion back , why did youu have t burst my only little bubble ? Why ? Tell me why are youu being just so , (...) well , i d k whaad t say , so are youu really not giving our batch a chance ? Youu know how much it hurts when i heard whaad youu told youur most belove-d batch of sec3s ? Can youu just feel the teeeeenny weeeeenny bit that we really are trying t bring up our discipline , yeaaah , maybe for the rest i d k , but i am sure youu can see that there were atleast a few of us who really wanted t change . Whaad did we get in the end ? Telling the sec3s , sec2s 离我越远越好 , youu know how much it hurts just by hearing how cold blooded you are . I tried t change my views of youu , but youu did exactly the same old thing , or should i say you became even more heartless , that i can't make mysel t like youu , i am not backstabbing or whtvr your friends or alumni(s) are speaking for youu said , i aam telling the truth , you don't give a damn shit t us , do youu ? Even if youu or youur alumni(s) see this , i am prepared for any consequences , i can't bottle this up anymore . I really can't , i did tried t , but i can't for the ma'am , who spoke for youu , i think Chingting should know who i am refering t . I shall tell youu here , since i d k when can i really tell youu , i don't think youu would read my blog , since you dislike me so much . Well , you didn't really state that you dislike me or whtvr , but some things i can feel it . Okaay , i really hate you deep down t the core , no i don't hate youu , i dislike youu , i know , i may not be a dancer , you might not like me or know me or whtvr , i don't care . Stop being bias against me , will youu ? during footdrill competition trainings , youu said i am not serious , youu reprimanded me , but do youu know , how tired , how sick i was feeling back then ? No , obviously youu don't , i almost feeling like passsing out , but youu scolded me , fine , when we lost , youu comforted youur dancers , ohh like wow , whaad am i , yeaaaah , shit , forget it , wednesday , when i wear my uniform , my shoelaces loose , i went to a corner t tied it up , my dress was just on the sit , i didn't sit , i didn't , youu scolded me for sitting , i didn't speak a word , but that didn't mean i did , faye , youu saw it , i didn't sit , why didn't youu speak up for me ? forget it . I mean nothing , isn't it ? I am just a worthless piece of shit in everyone's eyes . Lynette = Nothing / Who on earth is that ? / Ohh , youu mean that shit ? Okaaay , maybe i offended those dancers by saying all these stuffs , but i don't wanna care anymore , cause no one gives a damn t me . So ,go ahead and spam my blog . And yeaaaaaaaaah , the defination of lynette , Lynette = a pathetic counsellor No one listens t me , everyones gives me trouble , when their names are taken down , they bloody blame me , oh well , how pathetic can i get ? Well , that's life . But whaad's worse ? Why th hell am i the odd one out ? Why do i have this bloody efvective communication exams ? Why me !? Why can't i just say quit like how others do ? Why wouldn't you let me do so ? Why !? I don't enjoy myself there , i drag my way there , going there's worse than hell , why can't i have th original teachers and classmates back like last year , everything's keep changing , its making me sick . If i were just a normal kid out there , i could have enjoy-ed myself in the activities i had like others do , instead of writing and writing and writing like a fool . All we did is just writing , serious , whaad's the point ? I hate it . I don't care about having another cert ! I don't give a damn t cert , alright ? I just wanna be a normal kid , mum . )': I am breaking down , i really am . If i never joined council board , i wouldn't have been so (...) , i hate it , and how's my clique , i thought we were back to the funn times again ,but after that everything went back t a square one . Why don't youu let me out of the clique , i see no point , i really dojn't see any . When i realised youu everytime had activities with them , but never asked me t go in , i felt like , i d k , it hurts me more when i know all my clique members going t Compass , and no one asked me out , don't give me all those excuses , whaad i have Red Cross friends or whtvr , no one stpoped youu from asking me , but none of youu did , let me go , girls . I am tired , let me go . And boy , hope youu see this , i no longer have the feeling for youu , youu hurt me in the past , i cried , i grieve-d i did everything just t forget youu , and yeaaaah , i think baby , i am over youu .

And this is for Myself ! I love RYEOWOOK !!! My next top favourite ! WOOTS! (^^)





That's for my dearest Faye , ahahahaha , maybe cannot on time post birthday wish , so now give you first lorh , got your qin ai de lao gong de pictures , happy a not , haven't edit yet (: But still , happy birthday !

And so , are we back to where we started ?

Hello , there . And I finally post another one , and Jeaniequek , is saying she can't give a bloody tag cause my tagboard got problem . Yeah lah , my fault lo , happy ? Hmph , okay , i suddenly fell in love with two things - a song : THE CLIMB and RYEOWOOK !!! Oh my mummy ! AHH ~~ And now , i wonder , yeah , so are we back to where we started ? When you said we're over that day , on fourth of march , i blamed you for all the hurt that you caused . I cried every night , looking at the message , i read your letters , and tears came rolling down , i can no longer control it . But as times went by , i trie-d hating you , i thought i really did hate you , and i tell myself how you made me feel so disgusted how regretful i was . But until yesterday you called , i realised i don't hate you , i love-d you more than before . And when you asked if we could patch , i realised I don't need a perfect guy who wouldn't hurt me , i just need an imperfect guy who i have feelings for , i don't mind getting hurt once more , i just want to have more taste of the sweetness i had before ..

Still couldn't figure out the labels nevermind , too stupid to understand lah , i know . Alright , i calmed down , actually i know , no big deal losing him , really , no big deal

The battle , we lost

Yesterday , in the room , really , no feeling . Cause my mind were at somewhere else . Then went for UI , (uniform inspection) hai , a bit anxious liao , then heard RI 's banging - PANG ! Wahpiang , in my head was like wah , die liao lor then St. Magret's banging also went - PANG ! This time my head was going - wah si , we really die liao then ours were like - PRRAAG!!! DIE DIE DIE
then we went back , wait for out first round , still not nervous siah , d k why , how weird . Then when our turn , the whole process , really , i suck-ed ttm , i did 2 misteke siah . First , when belok , i turned , i didn't know Jun Hao couldn't turn , then someone ( i think is Jillian ) called me , then i went back to march . Second , the last command , supposed to turn back , i turn front . Fk it lah . Then Cheryl and Yi Mian say can see that i was distracted by something , then i admitted lor . Then went to auditorium room , i expected that we couldn't get in round 2 , then we sat down , then Jillian and Jun Hui beside me , then started crapping . The i went "Wah , junhui , is you ask for stead or yong qin ah ?" then he act blur -.- then i went " maybe junhui said this Yongqin , i want tell you a secret - i love you , you want stead with me ? THen Yongqin will go Junhui , i also love you leh !" Then jillian and i were laughing like mad . Then he blushed a little . Then i say " maybe junhui will say " Yongqin laopo , wo ai si ni le! then yongqin go junhui laogong, wo ye ai ni! Eeyer~ er xin!" Then when the results were about to break , i said to Junhui and Jillian "I tell you ah , if we get into round 2 , my math i get A let you see , if don't have , i get C!" Then the result came , we didn't make it to round 2 , Jun Hui went "Orh~~ Your math can get C liao !" , hai , saw jieqi cried , i abit watery , then jillian teared . Then hazel come cry , i also cry liao . Then xiongchang like keep saying "orh~~ cry liao .. 不要哭liao lah" then we cried even more . Then Junhui told xiongchang " 不可以, 要叫他们哭 , 他们才不会哭 !" Damn funny siah , then xiong chang say "哭 ， 快点哭 ！" Then we started laughing ! Thanks to JunHui and XiongChang . Joker siah ,

I am starting to forget you , you will regret , arsehole .

TIme Flies

Okaay , so it was just another sweet dreams ? I had always been so guligible that i believed every beautiful lie of yours , and now i had to suffer the outcome for knowing all the beautiful lies were to cover all hurtful facts . So , you said your parents found out about me , and want you to break , i found it weird , but i believed you , till one day , someone told me it was all a lie . The fact is that you had your eyes for another girl . I know this day would come , since i had been your third party , someone could have been our third party , but i didn't expect it to be so fast . I had a 3 months relationship with you , but you end it all . I thought on 270210 was the start of our perfect love story , but you end it . If you would tell me the truth that you no longer had the feeling for me , atleast i feel happy that you told me the truth , but you didn't . Baby , i really love-d you . But i am gonna forget you this moment , erase you from my life , but how could it done possible ? When you left so much memories and wherever i go , i still think of you . When i walk home , i remember you walking home with me . When i went for tuition , i remembered some things , when i go to rivervale mall , i remembered more , and when i was in my classroom , more things came to me . How awful of you to do this to me .
I strived so hard , and i get that , what do you take me for ? You did hit right into my heart , baby . I wanna dedicate this song to you - 知道

她讓你憔悴許多
她讓你不知所措
她一舉一動你不停的對我說

我微笑傾聽你說
我卻越聽越心痛
怎麼你說的不是我

她比我多了什麼
讓你願意耐心等候

我想知道她讓你痴心是什麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂為什麼
我知道做得和她沒有不同
但是我 卻不在你心中 逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我 總換不了你的心動

你讓我憔悴很多
你讓我不知所措
你一舉一動我的心被牽著走

她不經意的走過
你就把我給冷落
嫉妒把我給吞沒

她比我多了什麼
讓你願意耐心等候

我想知道她讓你痴心是什麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂為什麼
我知道做得和她沒有不同
但是我 卻不在你心中 逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我 總換不了你的心動

我知道了她那裡比我好更多
在你心中我永遠不可能會讓你心動
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我
在你心中沒有 她多

And , we lost .